Think Pink :)

Layla had her 6 month follow up for her Chalazion on her eyelid. Appointment went well...YAY! Chalazion is almost gonners. We would take care of it with warm towels and gently rubbed her eyelid with it. Within 5 months it has almost dissapeared. Here is picture's of MIss Smiley at breakfast :) I love you Layla!!!

Up close and smiling :)



You're more beautiful everyday that passes my precious daughter.



Miss Laylabug wore her new Hot Pink Minnetonka Moccasin shoes :)

Christmas Time in Downtown San Diego

This is how we spent our 12/12/12 evening. We had teriyaki chicken and noodles for dinner and then we did a little shopping. We found Layla the most beautufylly cute CHristmas Dress at MACY'S. Can't wait to post pics on Christmas Day!! Peace be with you all...and Jesus is the reason for the season..AMEN.

Ice Skating at Horton Plaza :)

Little Laylabug in her HK winter jacket, watching the ice skaters :)

Saying "CHEESE" during our 12/12/12 lunch date at good ole' Micky D's aka McDonald's

So My loving hubby has been on vacation this week being that our babysitter went on vacation to Mexico. Gary's been taking care of our daughter at home and Layla has loved every minute of it. They picked me up from work for lunch and it just felt good to be with them ot to lunch. Our layla was ALL smiles!! I have noticed she makes the same raised eyebrow silly smile faces as her daddy. So sweet. ENJOY!!!

A little bit of Rice, corn, carne and tortilla is all I need!

Umm, do I really have to eat this mom???

 

Here goes nothing......



"HMMM....NOT BAD MA...."



I LIKE IT, I REALLY LIKE IT!!!  =)

Oh I love my child so!!!! I Praise God for blessing me and my husband with our "Smart, Kind, Important, Beautiful and Funny" daughter. AMEN

Hugs to Heaven for Jesse

Today I was cleaning out my files on my computer at work. Come November 16th lay offs will take place and my job will be one of many. I came upon a file named MY BLOG  - JESSE. I wrote my first entry in this blog file on 10/01/2009 1:31 PM. The same year Jesse was diagnosed with terminal cancer. I've posted my entire blog on here before, but as I read the last entry from March 22, 2012 I couldn't help but feel emotional...the heartache is still there. So I had to write another entry...to heal some of the pain, at least for a while. I love my brother in Heaven. My coworker Patty helped cheer me up....she said my tears are going to disrupt Jesse from Jamin on the drums with Jesus....hahaha and that made me laugh and smile a little :)

Last two entries in my Blog for Jesse <3 See below.

Thursday March 22, 2012

Hello God, Hello Jesus, I love You and Praise You with all my heart. As you know Jesse is still sick in the hospital and feeling more pain. I pray to You to ease the pain in Jesse. We know that once Jesse is released from the hospital (Scripps Encinitas, THE BEST HOSIPITAL around) he will have Hospice take over his care at home. We all know what is ahead of us for Jesse. I must SAY OUT LOUD…I am always hopeful for your will to be a miracle of healing.  I’M NEVER GIVING UP believing in that. As You said to Jairus over his dying daughter, “Do Not Be Afraid, Only Believe” I believe!!!  I also believe that whatever Your will is it shall be done. Last night I called Jesse and talked to him for a little while.  Eva and Dennis had just left. Jesse sounded tired…but he talked with me for a few minutes.   He asked “What are you guys doing?” as he always does. J I told him I just got back from Target (bought Layla milk) and how I was taking Layla a bath while I was on the phone with him. I put the phone to Layla’s ear and she mumbled a few “words” baby babble to him, hee hee.  I asked him how the procedure went the day before, and he said “pretty good.” “They took some fluid out of the stomach.” “I might go home tomorrow.” I said OH GOOD…we’ll be up Saturday then, let me know if you need anything ok. Then I heard how tired he sounded so I said ok I’ll let you get some sleep…just wanted to speak to you… and I said “Good night, I love you!” and Jess replied “Ok, love you too!” Thank you Lord for these special even though it was short..it was beautiful conversations!

Peace, Love and Family..

Thursday August 23, 2012

Emotional. That’s the best word to describe how I am feeling right now, at this very moment.  It’s my first time writing in my blog about my brother Jesse since his passing on May 26, 2012. Oh Lord dealing with his loss has been tough as it is for any family member who suffers a loss of a loved one. I prayed so hard for Your healing Lord, to heal Jesse from cancer, but it didn’t happen. I believed in You but it just wasn’t Your will. And Lord it’s not about what WE want, it’s about what Your will is for us here on Earth in this life. I Love You Lord. I thank You for being by Jesse’s side, holding his hand through the pain and sadness and yes the fear of the unknown. It was You Lord who looked upon Jesse and saw that he was suffering too much on this earth from this ugly disease…and it was You who decided it was time to heal him from that and take him home to your kingdom. I sit here at work, 9:20 AM…writing this entry in this blog with tons of tears rolling down my cheeks…..my heart aches….Jess:: when you look down on us from Heaven, and when you see me crying, sad……don’t feel sad yourself….because my hope and faith is in The Lord that I know I will see you again!!! I miss you and I love you…………….FOREVER IN MY HEART!!!!  Thank you for watching over Layla and myself…Huge Teddy Bear Hugs to my brother!!!

Your little sis,

Anita

A Letter From Heaven

For anyone who has lost a loved one, read for some comfort. I couldn't help but cry while reading this. It's just beautiful. (((THinking of you Jesse)))

To my dearest family, some things I’d like to say,
But first of all to let you know that I arrived okay.
I’m writing this from Heaven, where I dwell with God above,
Where there are no tears or sadness, there is just eternal Love.

Please do not be unhappy, just because I’m out of sight,
Remember that I’m with you, every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you, when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me, and said, ” I welcome you”.

“It’s good to have you back again.
You were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they’ll be here later on.
I need you here so badly as part of my big plan.
There’s so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man”.

Then God gave me a list of things he wished for me to do.
And foremost on that list of mine, is to watch and care for you.
I will be beside you, every day of the week and year,
And when you’re sad I’m standing there, to wipe away the tear.

And when you lie in bed at night, the day’s chores put to flight,
God and I are closest to you in the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on Earth, and all those loving years,
Because you’re only human, there’s bound to be some tears.

One thing is for certain, though my life on Earth is over,
I am closer to you now than I ever was before.
And to my many friends, trust God knows what is best.
I am not far away from you, I’m just beyond the crest.

There are rocky roads ahead for you and many hills to climb,
Together we can do it, taking one day at a time.
It was my philosophy and please I’d like for you,
To give unto the world, so the world will give to you.

If you can help someone who’s in sorrow or in pain,
Then you can say to God at night, my day was not in vain.
And now I am contented that my life it was worthwhile,
Knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.

When you’re walking down the street and I am on your mind,
I’m walking in your footsteps, only half a step behind.
And when you feel a gentle breeze of wind upon your face,
That’s me giving you a great big hug, or just a s oft embrace.

When it’s time for you to go from that body to be free,
Remember you are not going, you are coming home to me.
I will always love you, from that place way up above,
I will be in touch again soon.
P.S. God sends his love.

~ Unknown



I LOVE MY JOB

 

Yes, it's the toughest job in the world, but also the most rewarding and fulfilling! Sometimes I let my "grouchies" get the best of me at home and find myself taking it out on my child - NOT IN A SPANKING WAY, but in a "Ay Layla stop already" way. I've heard coworkers, freinds complain a lot about their kids....being kids. Face it we ALL do it from time to time....and it's not fair to our baby. I came across this reading that uplifted me and hopefully will do the same for you :) 

No mom can be "perfect" all the time. We all lose our tempers. We all complain. We all get grouchy. But God knew that when He created us. He knew our flesh would win out once in awhile. That's why He sent Jesus to save us from sin, so we can repent for our grouchy attitudes and move forward in love. So get those grouchies off and let love control you today! 

Let Love RULE

CHALAZION (KUH-LEY-ZEE-UHN)

So, Laylabug has had a pea sized chalazion on her left eyelid for about 2 1/2 months.  We saw a  pediatric ophthalmologist who told us to continue with warm compresses 4 times a day for 15 minutes. If the chalazion doesn't clear in 6 months when we have the follow up appointment he will schedule surgery to remove it. It doesn't hurt or bother her but it seems to be getting bigger. We were not that consistent about compresses initially, it's tough to do it on a 1 1/2 yr old,  but have been doing them at least twice daily now. I just worry about baby girl having anesthesia for surgery if need be, but can't imagine her sitting still with only local anesthesia. So yes, most definitely praying the bump clears with warm "twaillitas,"  Lord Hear My prayers. Blessings to all! Peace, Love and Laylabug.

Chalazion on left eyelid 

I received an out-of-the-blue text from an unknown number this morning. This person was in need of prayer and was reaching out for help with a personal relationship. I read the long text and immidiatley felt sad for this person. I was able to relate to a few things they were going through and thought wow...soomeone else knows exactly how I feel in this similar situation. I replied not knowing who it was, but letting them know I would keep them in prayer. My BFF Sonia has been there for me during hard times and has given me the best advice...and always asks me..
WWJD, "What Would Jesus DO?" Giving it to Jesus is easier said than done, but always works out for the better.....we're only human, we WILL feel some pain during our lifetime on earth...but God will hold our hand through it all..we will get by. To the beautiful soul that text me..you know who you are.....My heart goes out to you. I will keep you in prayer...!

A prayer for anyone who needs it:

Dear heavenly Father THANK YOU for giving your only begotten son Jesus Christ to die on the cross for our sins. Please bless and help the people I know and don't know. Bless all who read this prayer. Lord I ask to heal any troubled relationships and keep us away from the enemy. Bless us with patience until You do Your will. In Jesus name AMEN!!

 

Happy 7-11 Day....

SO yesterday was 7/11/12 and this means Free slurpees at....you guessed it..7-11!!! We took Laylabug to get her very first CHERRY SLURPEE! It was a fun evening...made the most of something simple....it brought smiles to my babies face.  

FREE SLURPEE DAY =)



Mmm..first sip of her yummy slurpee :)



When we got home she traded her cherry slurpy for her daddy's BIG slurpee....and walked around the house with the giant size cup the rest of the evening...ha ha ha...ayyy Layla!



Here's to making your child smile! Take advantage of every day...spend as much time as possible with your precious blessing called children! God knows my desire for another bambino...even if we don't have another baby I am SO THANKFUL He gave me my LAYLA. AMEN



Shedding Tears is natural

Just got off the phone with my momma, I love her so much. I got emotional...feeling the loss of my brother..and started crying to my mom. She made me feel better with her words of love and hope...and then she cried with me. We can't believe Jesse is not here on earth with us anymore. But we both said God took him to Heaven because He didn't want Jesse to suffer anymore! I just wish I could hug my brother Jesse one more time...and feel his hugs. i can feel him sending his love shining down on me from Heaven. God is guiding us every day...and Jesus is holding our hand through the storms in life. I thank God for giving me this life of mine, for my family, for my blessing named Layla...to quote lyrics of a song that I love "I will remain confident in this, I will see the goodness of The Lord" I love that....i love God....I miss Jesse all the time...and Jesse wants me to keep living life being happy and cheery and to show Layla a good example. Layla sees her Tio's picture and she sticks out her lips and wants to kiss Jesse's pic :) It's never easy for anyone to lose a loved one...but look to the sky and feel peace that your loved one is in Heavenly peace...paradise...with out King! I love you Jesse....forever....and ever...Til we meet again brother. I'm sure he's with our beloved Chiquita too..(our Chihuahua).

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sa_KDXL1oXo&feature=colike

Jesse on Drums!!!!

Jesse, me, Eva and little Bobie

How Time Flies

Oh My, how time flies! This picture is of my babycakes, Layla at 16 months old. She's grown so much, and is making my heart more full every day. I love my precious angel so much. Also, some sad news...my dear brother Jesse passed away on May 26, 2012. He is with The Lord now, and when it's my time to go, I pray Jesse is the Angel that comes to pick me up. How I miss him being here on earth with me!!! I still cry....and it's still so hard to accept the loss of Jesse. But I know Jesus is holding my hand through this storm, and will guide me through any dark time in life. I love you Jesse Adam Rivera Valadez....always and forever in my heart!!!

My Hero! October 30, 1966 ~ May 26, 2012

See below for precious moments with Jesse.

Yo Habla Espanol :)

SO, little darlin has been at a  new liscensed Home Daycare for 3 weeks now. It was a little tough for baby the first 2 weeks. Being surrounded by unfamiliar people and lots of lil kiddos can scare a tiny "tater" tot, but now I am happy to say she's doing much better. PTL! :) One of the things I am happy about is that the daycare is ran in espanol!!! VIVA! ha ha....and Laylabug is learning spanish "orale" lol. Last evening I was playing with baby before bedtime and saying "Gimme kiss"......but when I said "damale beso," she leaned all the way over and kissed me several times.....Awwwwwwwwww!!! I couldn't believe it...it was so cute! I couldn't stop giggling! I am proud of my spanish understanding baby girl..my mijita :)  As she grows I'm sure she'll teach momma and papa some spanish!!! I HOPE.


Hola, Soy Laylabug!

This photo was taken at a baby shower last weekend..and she was going to each table where the ladies were talking and laughing...and they all know Layla..ha ha ha...even ladies I don't know... :)

"Peace and Love." A post from Tiffany - HUGE LOVE BLOG SPOT

Some thoughts on the passing of Whitney Houston

Posted: 16 Feb 2012 10:03 PM PST

As the whole world is well aware at this point, I think there is some really horrible things said about the late Ms. Houston. And there are some really ridiculous conversations being had. For example:

I watched Dr. Drew for a few minutes, and he was saying that drug use and alcoholism was a disease, just like cancer.

Well, no "Dr. Drew." There are perfectly healthy people who live their lives with margin and are stricken with cancer out of now where--and NO fault to them. I know women who simply woke up one day and had a lump in their breast. Cancer is not a choice; but choosing to do drugs or take another drink is. We all have free will, and in this country we have the freedom to choose what we want to do with our lives or not do.

If you don't do drugs, you'll never be a drug addict. If you don't drink alcohol, you'll never be an alcoholic. You can't say the same for a disease like cancer.

But what all these TV personalities (Dr. Drew, etc) don't understand is that every human has an enemy, whose name is Satan. Jesus even tells us that Satan's objective is to "kill, steal, and destroy" us. (John 10:10) And Satan will use ANY means he can to destroy us. If it's the lure of drug euphoria, then he'll tempt us with that. If it's an lure of being super skinny, then he'll use that--bulimia or anorexia. If it's the lure of having the attention of guys, he'll destroy you with giving your body away in sex to get the "love" you think you need. See? Satan doesn't care with WHAT he destroys us with, all that matters is that he DESTROYS us.

But we have hope. Jesus knew all of this, and He came so that we may have life (if we choose it) and we all get choices to make in life.

Deuteronomy 30:19 This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live.

But even after recognizing we have the responsibility to make right choices in life, and that we all have an enemy that is hoping for our destruction--we have the Great "I AM" who is the Creator of life, the redeemer of our lives and the Savior of our lives-- on our side. And God always prevails. Not matter what you are facing, God is bigger and can deliver you in ways you can't even imagine. Our job is to seek Him first. But that is the hope we have while our hearts still beat. That's why it matters NOW what we choose, no one is guaranteed their next breath!

Anyway, I really think the loss of Whitney Houston is sad, just as the loss of anyone else is. It's like a little light went out in the world, never to be lit again. It makes me sad that she believed the lies of Satan and followed his lead to total destruction. Whenever I think of it, or am reminded as every show and news program seems to keep harping on every aspect of her life--I just pray for her daughter and mother. I personally think that after someone has passed, we shouldn't speak negatively about them, but rather give grace to their surviving family members and allow them to grieve without feeling that the whole world is cannibalizing on their passed loved one. I don't think I could even watch tv right now if I was Whitney Houston's daughter.

People think just because they are wealthy/celebrity, that it makes it okay. But I'm sure that Whitney Houston's daughter would give every last penny away just to have her mom again. There are things that money can't help, can't cure and can't fix. I think it's unfair that tv people even allude to that. What can I say? I think the media is mostly cannibalistic and feed on tragedy. After all, when I was in college, my journalism professor said the maxim was "if it bleeds, it leads." So not much has changed since I was in school unfortunately.

But I know you all have big hearts, as many of you have shared them with me already. I encourage you all to pray for Bobbi Christina (Whitney's daughter) that she would come to know Jesus as her personal Lord and Savior and find healing and stable ground on which to build her life from here forward. God being a loving God, even tells us in Psalm 34:18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Huge love,
Tiffany

1 year of L, O, V, E...LOVE! and many more to come.

Such a pretty, bright n colorful picture! Cupcakes RULE!!! Pics below are Layla's month by month pics! It's so cool to see all the changes of features baby goes through from birth on! As always....I Thank and Praise The Lord for my daughter..she truly is a blessing and I pray that God uses her to do good things on this earth. I LOVE YOU LAYLA!!!

1 YEAR OLD PIC WILL BE POSTED TOMORROW....baby girl is sleeping at this moment!

Anyone need some encouragement???...take a looksy :)

I read these encouraging words by Joel Osteen and really want to share with you all. Perhaps it will help someone going through a difficult time. Please read…and don’t give up HOPE!

Sometimes it’s so east to focus on our problems and try to solve them in our own strength. But remember, the battle belongs to the Lord. He has a plan for your victory. He is making the things that seem impossible, possible. You can trust Him today. Start believing and confessing today, “I am with God, and with God all things are possible!” Are your bills piling up? With God all things are possible. Do your relationships need healing? With God all things are possible. As you meditate on God’s word, His power is activated in your life. He will strengthen you and lead your forward into that place of victory He has in store for you.

I love this prayer. This prayer helps me during any struggles is. SAY IT WITH ME ….

Heavenly father Thank You for making a way where there seems to be no way. I choose to trust You, and believe all things are possible! Show me your power today. Work through me to encourage others around me to trust You more, in Jesus name..AMEN!

and last but not least...see below to what brightens my day and night... :)

Lil Miss Laylabug....aka Cupcake...aka beautifl..aka lil mama's...aka LaylaLou...aka Layla Lorraine Pendleton...hee hee

I hope and pray for all my family and freinds.

Peace, Love and Laylabug

Anita Bobita :)